Another lesson learned that I’d like to share with you.
First the background. This relates to a realization I mentioned a few posts ago (#125) in that I decided that I didn’t want to wield the power I have in other realities, which had come to full fruition, while working alongside E and Argon to help them fight the so-called ‘evil ETs’. Neither was happy with my decision, Argon in particular feeling deeply let down. As I said, loyalty means a great deal to dragons. They stayed with me for a few weeks however, hoping to change my mind, even protecting me against other dragons who wished to harm me as a result of my withdrawal.
I continued to ‘turn up’ each night in the hope that they’d accept my wish and that we could find something else to do together but it wasn’t an option apparently. Looking back, I think they’d ‘groomed me’ to join them in this battle from the start. I also didn’t want to add insult to injury by just turning my back on them and walking away when I realized that we’d come to an impasse, so when they
did exactly that to me
some few nights ago……… Argon literally……… although it saddened me, I accepted it and didn’t try to call them back.
Now to the lesson I learned coincidentally with this experience which I think may apply in ways not understood by some in many inner journeys we can experience.
During the past few weeks when our differing wills became so obvious, my physical energies began to wane. I would wake up feeling exhausted and not want to get out of bed, not regaining any sense of normality until late evening, due to refuelling (eating) I’m guessing. Dizziness was also present, although that has come and gone before. I found out the cause for that also during this period as the two tie in together.
It’s all to do with the myriad realities we can choose to participate in while resident in this one, and the bonds we form to others in them. Those bonds are formed initially by focusing our consciousness on what (or who) these realities contain, most strongly with this one obviously, but also to those that are not generally part of the ‘normal’ 3D experiences here. Some are a little removed from here and others roads far ‘less travelled’, but we can experience any of them at will. Those bonds are strengthened enormously when we connect, literally, with others in that reality emotionally. The more powerful the emotion is the stronger the link is if it’s a two-way street, the strongest obviously being love, a common goal, fear or hate. They can all keep you open to and linked with the beings in any reality, positive thoughts and emotions feeding back in you in that ilk, enhancing your own energy flows, but also feeding negativity if that is the bond between you and the other.
But there’s other more complex ways these bonds can affect your own energies, which is what I’ve experienced. If the bond between you and the other(s) is built out of love or friendship it is a strongly formed two-way street on that basis alone. If the mind and wills experience a divergence however, a sort of tug-of-war in the energy flow between the two can manifest. In which direction the energy flows most strongly depends on the will, mindset and emotions of each party involved.
In my case, the love bond between all parties was still strong and binding us. That alone was drawing my emotional energy to them as I was feeling guilt at letting them down and so in a ‘giving’ state, not wanting to cause them more pain and trying to make amends. I also remained open to them mentally; listening to the angry arguments they were presenting to draw me back to their chosen path, giving them the opportunity to convince me, if they could, that I was wrong. I allowed their will to become the dominant one in the exchange of energy between us. They were trying to pull me back to their path, even though energetically I was already traveling in a different direction within. We were diverging, separating, weakening the bond and thus making the exchange of energies even more stressful to my being.
The good news is that three or four days ago when I presented myself, E was not waiting and Argon wanted me to watch him walk away from me. With sadness, I let him, and haven’t tried to reconnect with E. I knew it was the only way as none of us were going to change our views. And since then, my energy levels have increased each day
. I’m feeling more full of vitality than I have for some time and loving it.
As regards the dizziness, there was/is also a guy from my past in a reality much, much closer to this one who has also being trying to pull me into a more intimate relationship with him on this level, which I’ve wanted to avoid without fighting/hurting him astrally. So my energy flows have been stretched and pulled in quite a few different directions of late, especially with me being the type that accedes, to a degree, to the wishes of others in not wanting to hurt them. As one of my guides said to me just recently, I was being pulled away from my Center by all parties. But we have
to be true to ourselves and thus stay centered, and sometimes the unfortunate side effect of that is that others may get hurt if they are on different journeys/wavelengths and don’t understand.
So, to sum up, the lesson for me is that we can be ‘plugged into’ many different realities energetically depending on our interests and feelings. Those links can be mutually beneficial while all parties’ wills are in harmony during the experience, but they can also be detrimental to us energetically if one or more parties in the bond takes or gives more than another, even when the bond is one of love. Fear bonds are a whole other story, but the principle is the same…..whose will dominates makes the difference as to which way the energy flows more strongly.
, another lesson learned. I do so love these inner journeys! The perceived difficulties may seem debilitating at the time, but they are well and truly worth it when realization finally dawns on me. And doing it this way is sooooo much more interesting and fun than anything I can imagine doing in this so-much-more restricted reality.
I hope that if you’ve managed to read through all of this that my lesson may serve you in some way as well someday.